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OK, so I was thinking 2 weeks ago how Alcoholics have support groups such as AA, and then how I have had buddyslim which has also been a WONDERFUL support group, but I finally had to go Weight Watchers.  Yep, I’ve been frustrated at myself and I realize how I really need to be checking in with people.  I joined last week and so far everything is going good.  I’m very addicted to food and need to start filling in my emotional eating with other activities.  I hope you all continue on your journey’s even when it seems impossible. 

Alright so I went down that path again; I started eating the wrong foods, I started eating in excess and YES there were consequences- I GAINED 3 POUNDS last week!! This week I looked inside to see what was going on and I figured I was stressed, I was too tired, I felt like I deserved to SPLURGE on me only because I had lost 18 pounds!! WRONG!  NO time is a good time to sabatoge or to feel like you DESERVE food.  So I am back.  This week I took off a pound and I am working out, eating right again.  I have to DO this NOW, not in another day, another month, another year!! I’ve been FAT ALL my life, I DESERVE to be healthy……OK, glad I got that off my chest.  I hope you ALL have a GREAT DAY and weekend!!

Yep, sirens went off after lunch!  One of my co-workers brought in shipley donuts, yes he did.  He sabatoged me, put that carb, sugar, fat overloaded stuff at the front desk so I can see it every time I walk by.  I thought, well I’ll just have one in the am and be done since I’ve been good.  Nope, I just had ANOTHER one after lunch!! I cannot believe I did this, wait, I actually did do this to me.  OK, so I’m not beating up myself, but why o why am I surrounded by junk food that is brought in by coworkers.  I need the donut police to come after me, cuff me and put something in my mouth so it doesn’t open any more for today…je, je..

So I’ve been losing about a pound a week and it has been so frustrating!  I have been increasing my walking distance so I am walking 2.5 miles, 5 days a week.  I have been eating my oatmeal, salads, and other great foods.  I guess I get a little anxious since it seems like so much work and to not see more results can be a little frustrating.  I hope the next 2 weeks will finally get me out of the 270’s once and for all!

I am so excited to be in the 270’s now.  I am down to 276 and I hope to be out of the 270’s in 3-4 weeks.  I don’t know what finally clicked for me, but I know that I can be a healthy person and that it is not tortuous to eat healthy food.  I know that I cannot keep junk food ever around as it does no good.  I am feeling really committed to living this way.  In the past it was always starting and getting frustrated or having set backs and gaining the weight again and more.  This time I really want to be under 200 pounds.  That would be the biggest milestone of my life.  I have not been under 200 lbs since I was 18; which was 17 years ago.  I was thinking about this yesterday, it would be ironic but AWESOME to be “hotter” in my 30’s then when I was in my 20’s.

Alright, so I went to the Dr. last week and I have a couple of issues.  My sugar level was 110, which the Dr. said could be pre=diabetic; so before I get that diesease I’m going to be cutting out a lot of stuff.  I need some advice with what to do for breakfast meals.  I had some turkey deli, almonds, banana this morning, but I don’t think I can do this forever.  My understanding is that oatmeal is also a grain, so no grains right?  Any advice would be helpful.  I am also having some liver issues, which I will know for sure by the end of next week, so no coffee.

Yes, I reached down to 279 lbs on Friday!  I started on this journey for real this time on January 1st since I want to have a baby soon.  I am 35 years old and I cannot delay this anymore since I am working against time.  I have now gone from 289 to 279 in a little over a month which is awesome.  I’ve been doing 25 minutes of interval walking five times a week for 1.25 miles everyday.  I also do weights on 2 of the five days.  I am parking further away from work too.  I am going to try to walk 1.5 miles everyday now and increasing to 35 minues of walking.  I’m thinking of incorporating some workout video.  My clothes is feeling loose, but not falling off :).  I hope everyone has a great month this month.  Don’t give up, and if you’ve messed up just start again the following day!  You can do it! 

So I really started getting lazy and I completely let myself go and left buddy slim.  I thought who cares anyways, it doesn’t matter.  Well lately I’ve had a reality check as now I’ve know of 3 people under the age of 50 having heart attacks in the last year.  This has been very eye opening, as I am 34 years old and 282 pounds as of today.  These other people were not even as big as I was.  I started on a weight challenge with two of my girlfriends on January 1st.  I started at 289 at the beginning of the year and have lost 7 pounds since then.  It is really hard when you’re really big and even to get out of a chair, it feels like a chore. 

OK so I lost 7 pounds in two weeks and I haven’t lost anything more after the 2 subsequent weeks.  So that makes it 7 pounds in a month.  I am fine with that, I hurt my hamstring and I am walking again, but I think my body is adjusting.  I’m not saying it’s discouraging, but I look at it long term; what is what I want.  Do I want to lose weight fast and then gain it all back and more or can I do 1-2 pounds a week.  My goal is at least one pound this week.  Besides it took my 33 years to get this big, why should I cry if  it’s only been a month right?  I’m going to push to do better everyday….

I am now at 273 pounds and I am looking forward to hopefully losing one or two pounds this week.  I strained a hamstring with power walking so I am slower these days and making sure to warm up and cool down.  I’ve compensated by eating more salads and drinking more water.  I will be uploading pictures today too.  I’m going to put up my 280lb picture and will hopefully put up my mini goal of 265lb picture in a couple of weeks.  I hope you all out there are still motivated!!  We have to do this for our health and for ourselves. We need to beat all of those diseases out there……It’s hard, but don’t quit!!